speaking how you feel

Do you have trouble talking to your parents...well i have, it's hard to tell someone you love you want to do something when you know they will tray and talk you out of it, my mother is like that she will support me in anything i choose to do, but there is so much i can't tell here because i am afraid of here reaction, i couldn't tell here i have a boyfriend, as she has always said i was too young.. i'm 19 now and yet i still can't tell her, i don't know if i am ashamed or embarrased but it hard to do for me, in 11 days i'm going to brazil to stay with what was my Boyfriend, i found it so hard to tell my parents about this trip, still they don't know i'm staying with my ex boyfriend, it terrifies me to tell them anything about my personal life... i have always been the good one, and i don't like disapoining my parents, even though i know i could never disapoint them....sometimes i wonder what if... what if i told them i was staying with him, what if i told them i had a boyfriend, would it change everything or would everything still be the same....i just get realy afraid to take that chance as i'm afraid of what everyone will say.....