why is it that some people find it hard to forgive and forget???....... I don't like to stay in the past i always move towards the future, if someone has done something to hurt me, betray my trust, break my heart, i always find it easyer to forgive that person and move on, I can't let the past ruin my future. Whats in the past stays in the past. I don't let other people tell me how to live my life, i live how i want to, i don't let people judge me. Myself and God are the only ones to judge me.... if i listerend to everyone who had someting to say about me i proberly would be in to drugs and be a high school drop out and have no future.... but my true friends are the ones who like me for me, i will not change myself to be friends with people. If they don't like me then maybe we're not mean't to be friends.. Everyday i see people being someone they are not, it not a way to live life. Live life your way and be happy. don't let anyone tell you different. I have a bright future a head of me and i intend to keep it that way.

the one that got away.....are they the one that realy got away, or was it just not meant to be?? how often do you ask yourself that question?? i am 19 and i have only had one boyfriend in my life... i loved him so much that i let myself get so caught up, He was the one that when i was with him he made me feel like no one else existed just me and him it was the most amazing feeling ever.... may of 2009 we met we were together for 3 months then he wanted to move in with me.... i said yes we lived together for 6 weeks then he went back to brazil, we were supposed to break up in auguet when he left, but we fell in love and couldn't do. He said he would be back in december... but truthfuly i knew he wouldn't be back.. it is march now and yet he is not back and doesn't plan on coming back to New Zealand anytime soon.. i booked my tickets in december to go see him in brazil in april 2010, last week i had a message from him that he broke up with me... i am still going to see him in brazil but just as friends... was he the one that got away or was it not meant to be...sometimes i wonder if i will ever feel the way about another guy the same way he made me feel....he was special and he will always be in my heart.... but for now i'm going to stay single i have stuff to do in my life that i can't have people holding me back... this trip to brazil will be the final time i see him and i will cry my heart out, but i think it will be good for me to say a final good bye to him, maybe make me move on with life a lot easyer.....

speaking how you feel

Do you have trouble talking to your parents...well i have, it's hard to tell someone you love you want to do something when you know they will tray and talk you out of it, my mother is like that she will support me in anything i choose to do, but there is so much i can't tell here because i am afraid of here reaction, i couldn't tell here i have a boyfriend, as she has always said i was too young.. i'm 19 now and yet i still can't tell her, i don't know if i am ashamed or embarrased but it hard to do for me, in 11 days i'm going to brazil to stay with what was my Boyfriend, i found it so hard to tell my parents about this trip, still they don't know i'm staying with my ex boyfriend, it terrifies me to tell them anything about my personal life... i have always been the good one, and i don't like disapoining my parents, even though i know i could never disapoint them....sometimes i wonder what if... what if i told them i was staying with him, what if i told them i had a boyfriend, would it change everything or would everything still be the same....i just get realy afraid to take that chance as i'm afraid of what everyone will say.....